Hey..its like 9.15 in the morning now..everybody's training and here i am blogging. Why? All because my dad says he cannot freaking wake up to fetch me to training. He blames me for not waking him up and says it's suppose to be MY freaking resposibility to wake him up instead. WTF! i'm dam freaking pissed now la..I mean..all of your parents can wake up and fetch u for training and here he is telling me i'm the one at wrong. FUK HIM!! KNNBCCB!! Then he blames me for playing game until so late and i'm like wtf..its got nth to do with HIM waking up late.. FUK la..This is not the first time already la..he's like freaking irresponsible..i even told him before i sleep that i wanted to go morning training and he comes neglecting me..FUK..what happens in the end? i end up telling other ppl (especially my meimei) that i'm going training and i din turn up..always making her disappointed (so sorry)..like i'm a person who often makes empty promises..FUK la..how to be good lidat? i wanna work hard so can do better the next upcoming competitions and he is like here depriving me of my training sessions..worst of all..EVERYTHING is my fault..ARGHH!!!! *PISSED*

Hihi..today is the first day of NAG..and i did dam badly la..swim wat 1.13 for 100 back?!?! wtf lorr..so slow..lose to my mei summore..LOL..always die out in 2nd 50...summore i slipped twice on the bloody board la..during push off and turning..shit la..the god damn board so slippery..sigh..rainer is GODLIKE..he broke the national record with a time of 1.02.66 for 10 back!! WELL DONE DUDE :D haha..the first 2 in their age was faster than our first place la..hahahs..so funny.. Walau i feel like joining COE la..so motivated..hate my coach's training la..not effective for me at all lorr..whole day long D long D until i forgot how to sprint alreadie..then do wat stupid drills..OMG..practically wasting my time..sigh..hope i do better on tuesday..got 3 events..haha..maybe im quitting swimming soon..don seem to be achieving anything..SIGH..)):

hey...so bored so i jus decided to blog for a while.. haha sigh..nag is next week..dono whether im prepared..i really wanna get into sea age la..sounds like fun..well and bring glory? anw hmm..about this gal i like...dont seem to get anywhere with her..all i want is her attention..jus a bit..a teeny weeny bit.. for jus a while..a very short while..but i jus cant seem to get it either.. mayb i should i jus give her up? i dono..she thinks im always joking..well..i really really like her and i feel like im breaking down..the way she talks really tells me she prefers another guy..i really dono wat to do..sigh..wouldve jus gave up everything if i could..i guess we're jus not fated to be together? if there was 1 thing in my life i would give up everything for..it really was her..its like no matter what im doing i always think of her in my mind..sigh..its the first time ive eva felt so much for a girl in my life..how i wished i hadnt met her..then all these wouldnt have happened..sigh..T.T

hi..erm..ya i guess this is my first blog? haha. I really need help in finiding nice templates and how do you put music on this? Tips..anyone? thanks :D